I know that we all want the best for our kids. We are lucky to have such a great Opthamologist and a kid that has some vision (just not the greatest) AND the potential to make her eyes stronger.
BUT, it is hard to watch a toddler in the examination room each month struggling to see the large letters on the eye chart.
It is hard to place a patch every morning on her “good eye” and take away her vision.
It is hard to look at her alligator tears when she is trying to convince us to keep the patch off for just 5 minutes so she can see.
It is hard to watch her run into walls and fall off playground equipment.
It is even harder to hear that her vision is decreasing.
For the past 3 months, our daughter has not had the greatest visits. For the first 2 of the 3 visits, the staff thought maybe we were just catching her on bad days or on her silly moods… but I knew better. Last week we were given the news that she needed another prescription change and is now up to -8.5 in her right eye and -1.5 in her left. Was the 10-12 hours of day of patching not helping??? No, it is helping because both eyes are getting worse together. Her nearsightedness is getting worse because she is growing and will unfortunately continue to get worse.
I am getting better at holding it together until I get home from appointments and can remove myself from her view. I really need to be positive for her. But behind the closed doors, I cry. I cry because I want the best for my child. I cry because I want her to have every opportunity in the world. And I cry because I feel helpless.
Then it’s time to open the door and face reality; I get to work. I called the vision specialist. Because Elly’s vision is doing the opposite than we had hoped and we are patching full time, they are going to qualify her for temporary vision services. Additionally, the OP said that she is sending a referral to occupational therapy as it may help strengthen the eye – so I called to schedule an initial appointment. And last, but not least, I put a smile on my face, thankful of all the joy my daughter brings to my life and for all the opportunities she will have because we have caught her vision issues at such a young age.